The Journey of Finding Self Love



          


When we were first assigned this photo essay I was having a very hard time deciding what kind of story would work.  I realize now that I was going about it the wrong way.  I was thinking of photos that I wanted to take and then was trying to find some story that would fit into those pictures.  Ultimately, that didn’t end well because I kept hitting a bunch of dead ends and couldn’t find a narrative that matched any pictures I had in mind.  I toyed around with two different stories and was actually set on one in which I followed by brother’s life around for a day to tell the story of a high school student, but I wasn’t excited about it at all.  I already compiled a list of some photos I was going to take, however was dreading taking them.  It wasn’t until I was scrolling through my camera roll one day and stumbled across a picture of me, smiling with a bunch of acne on my face.  That’s when the idea hit me, and everything else seemed to fall in place.  I was actually really excited to work on the project now.

            My favorite part of the project was taking the pictures.  This story while it was about my acne and how I ended up where I am today with it, I didn’t want to focus on that.   The best thing that happened to me from this whole acne debacle was the way I feel about myself, not the fact that my acne cleared up.   While some parts of the story were necessary to include so it flowed like a narrative, I wanted to emphasize the emotion behind it all.  Good portions of my shots are portraits, but I don’t find them repetitive.  These portrait shots are of me, but they are all different from one another and flow chronologically to tell the story.  You can see it in my face how I changed throughout the process.  With some of these photos I got creative with it.  My two favorite pictures were the ones with the bag over my head and with masking tape covering the mirror.  Of course I didn’t actually leave the house with a trash bag on, or bombard my mirror with tape, but the goal of these photos were to reflect how I felt inside.  I didn’t want anyone to see me, which is what the trash bag portrayed and I also didn’t want to look at myself, which was shown by the mirror picture.  I also felt it appropriate for these photos to be in black and white because it exposed them in a darker light, and during that time I was feeling scary, dark emotions.
           The challenge I faced when producing this story was how much technicality did I want to include.  What I mean by this was I was debating if I wanted to talk more about the medications I was on and the order in which I was prescribed them.  I felt if I did that then it would start to become repetitive.  To avoid this I took a photo of all of the prescriptions I received throughout the years to show all of them off.  I wanted the readers to see how many different products I’ve tried because it’s been a lot, instead of saying at my first appointment I was prescribed this, then my second it was this, etc.  Another thing I struggled with was the formatting of the project.  I intended on producing it on Word and then copy and pasting it to Google Slides since that gives you a link.  Every time I typed something new my pictures would move locations and I ended up spending so much time trying to get things in the places I wanted them to be.  I eventually gave up on using Word and used PowerPoint instead.  I still like how the final product looks, it was just frustrating spending all that time getting it to work out on Word to only abandon that idea.
          This type of storytelling is unlike any other genre I’ve dabbled in because you need to find a way to tell a story through pictures.  While there is still text involved I think that in a photo essay the reader should still be able to strictly look at the photos and have an idea of what the story is.  If readers are unable to do this then I don’t believe the work to be a successful photo essay.   What also makes a photo essay unique is the text that is present.  At first it was difficult to not type out the entire story with text and throw in a couple pictures that went along with it.  In traditional storytelling that is what you would do, so it was an adjustment to have to approach this assignment in a different way.  The text should not tell the story word for word, it should be a crutch to the photos and vise versa.  The tricky thing about a photo essay is finding that perfect balance in text and pictures.  One should not outshine the other, but work together in creating the story.  
       It’s very easy to get lost in a photo essay, so I would recommend doing quite a bit on planning beforehand.  What I did was first I came up with a story I wanted to tell and then I started brainstorming some pictures.  Once I had a good bit of photos in mind,  I went back and ordered them chronologically.  Next I took the pictures on my list and made sure the ordering made sense and that there were no photos missing in telling the story.  When my photos were edited and in order, I then started to add text that went off of the pictures.  For me this was the most efficient way to go about this project.  Overall I really enjoyed the photo essay.  It dealt with two things I love being writing and photography.  I’m happy with how my final product turned out and hope to make more of this form of digital storytelling in the future.

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